thank you

in te last few years, i have compensated for the tears of the earlier 18 years of my life.
and the the rest of mine too, hopefully.
a friend recently asked me what stopped it.
well heres the answer..
the pursuit of happiness.
when you reach a point when you want to be happy as much as you want oxygen thats when you dont even have to try.
automatically you train you mind to seek happiness, to turn every small moment of pleasue into lasting happiness.
happiness in is the small mercies of life.
the big ones come later.

it all started with the same friend telling me something onc that i will never forget...
it was about a year ago..
when i asked her why does happiness keep evading me, why do i not get what i want
and she said...
sana, we are like chess pieces being moved by someone above....
someimes we can see that if the person above just moves us one square we could kill the other persons pawn... and he isnt moving us.. and we keep wondering why, we curse him, we shout at him, but to no avail...
we can just see that one move and the glory and happiness it would give us
what we dont see
is what he does,
if he moves us that one sqare, there is another pawn who would kill us, and then chek mate..
so sometimes when you want things real bad and they are not happening,
keep patience... there is a reason...
and i swear i couldnt have put it better.
all i want to say to this person is thanks...
and i wish i could help her...
i will be there, just like she was...