Sunday, December 14, 2008
The West Indies
In order to be sane,
we should stay on different continents.
As the distance decreases,
sanity lifts up her skirt, and exits, as though escaping
to more pliable dwellings.
And so, for further references
if you find me delirious,
go away to Europe, Africa,
or better still go to the West Indies.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Pahasu House
a window, fourteen feet high, once threw on my old bed.
The arches of my ancestral home, still bent low with mourning,
and the loss of ninety three or so years of service to a pearl bearded man.
The room now lies bare, and dusty,
that eyelash has settled in the clockwork of that old winding table clock, with a radium dial.
Someday perhaps, in a sunday antique market,
the eyelash, will be released again,
lumbering with it an outdated wish.
Friday, December 5, 2008
The Obligation to be Happy by Linda Pastan
than the rites of beauty
or housework, harder than love.
But you expect it of me casually,
the way you expect the sun
to come up, not in spite of rain
or clouds but because of them.
And so I smile, as if my own fidelity
to sadness were a hidden vice—
that downward tug on my mouth,
my old suspicion that health
and love are brief irrelevancies,
no more than laughter in the warm dark
strangled at dawn.
Happiness. I try to hoist it
on my narrow shoulders again—
a knapsack heavy with gold coins.
I stumble around the house,
bump into things.
Only Midas himself
would understand.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
a person, that my entire childhood has run away from?
Why do i now think of a billions things i could have learned from him,
and a million stories he could've told?
just when he has gone?
The person who made my father from his being,
Did i do justice to his story, by never even giving it a chance?
was it the 70 odd years that stood monolithic?
or that one impulse of a remark?
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Acrid yesterday
Monday, November 17, 2008
Of sepia moments
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Corrode
Friday, October 24, 2008
Soneto V
y cuanto yo escribir de vos deseo:
vos sola lo escribistes; yo lo leo
tan solo que aun de vos me guardo en esto.
En esto estoy y estaré siempre puesto,
que aunque no cabe en mí cuanto en vos veo,
de tanto bien lo que no entiendo creo,
tomando ya la fe por presupuesto.
Yo no nací sino para quereros;
mi alma os ha cortado a su medida;
por hábito del alma misma os quiero;
cuanto tengo confieso yo deberos;
por vos nací, por vos tengo la vida,
por vos he de morir, y por vos muero.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
october monsoon
Friday, October 10, 2008
When we two are parted
When we two are parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.
They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.
In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears
Lord Byron
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
After Years of Listening, A Stone Comes to Life
and the candle in the tiny grass;
and the night, like a wife, comes home;
a feather, in this touch of wind, flies back
to the lost bird, and everything I do not know
begins to sway at once.
I love these nights of irresistible somnambulance!
These nights when the wind blows its lullabye
to each lonely wing; I love this old body I walk in,
I love this dependable sage, this desert scent
I sink into when I rest; and suddenly I know
I will no longer apologize for loving you.
I whispered your name and the wind whinnied back.
All the horses of heaven are in the pasture tonight.
--- James Tipton
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
cough cough....
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
faith less
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Before Sunrise
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
water seepage
spots on dots
Leave the sunshine out, and shut the door
Mrs Mr Miss
Carved In Stone
I shall not be inconsolable. There will be other rooms, other faces, open spaces, long stretches of time when I shall not even be conscious that you are not there.
I count the cost in concrete terms. You will not know my children’s names, nor I yours. That I may look at a photograph and remember my eyes looking at you looking at me. That some green girl in love with herself will hold your life in her hands.
I shall not say your name again, not even by chance.
One day, perhaps, love may die of disuse, left to rust in wind and weather.
- Revathy Gopal
Revathy was an Indian poet who died of cancer recently,
her writing has a certain solid experiential quality that will never be forgotten.
Monday, September 15, 2008
sheetleaf and rosepetals
Friday, September 12, 2008
Sonnet
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
ek ye din bhi hain,
ek wo raat thi,
ek ye raat hai,
raat ye bhi guzar jaegi.....
koi aata hai palkon pe chalta hua,
ek aansun sunehri sa jalta hua,
khwab bujh jaenge,
rakh reh jaegi,
raat ye bhi guzar jaegi.....
waqt saalon ki dhund se nikal jaega,
tera chehra nazar se pighal jaega,
aankh band hogi to,
neend aa jaegi,
raat ye bhi guzar jaegi.....
raat ye bhi guzar jaegi.....
Gulzar
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
scribbled half eaten stories
and stories with endings scribbled out,
drive me mad,
what was the author thinking,
could he not come up with a solution, to a problem he created?
did he lose interest?
or maybe,
he was so ensconced within his story,
that he forgot, that it has to end somewhere?
that all stories have an ending,
and that it is only upto him
to end it with the same dignity
that it started.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Thursday, July 31, 2008
a walk across the mind
for the last few centuries,
never stopping for water, or food
conversation was the only fuel
we would construct conversations
out of the oblivion of fumes of daylight and nighttime
Today as we walk together,
we have run out of conversations,
we only look at each other occasionaly and smile
reassuring each other of our presence
Too scared to break this convenient arrangement
this habit of my two steps to match your one stride
Perhaps, this road is a circle,
with different diameters,
and the only way out
is to change the destination.
Perhaps, we still talk to each other
but only in our minds.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
innuendo
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
so you want to be a writer? by Charles Bukowski
Thursday, July 10, 2008
if
If you can keep your head when all about you |
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter.
Albert Camus
Monday, July 7, 2008
the weekend
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
The opinionated and the bystander
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Judas
Monday, June 30, 2008
fingers
a book of me
Friday, June 27, 2008
Aamir
Thursday, June 26, 2008
and i figured, he can hear me too...
a pencil box full of dreams
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Today's whim
an ode to becoming a verse monster
She Dwelt among the Untrodden Ways
She dwelt among the untrodden ways
Beside the springs of Dove,
A Maid whom there were none to praise
And very few to love:
A violet by a mossy stone
Half hidden from the eye!
– Fair as a star, when only one
Is shining in the sky.
She lived unknown, and few could know
When Lucy ceased to be;
But she is in her grave, and, oh,
The difference to me!
W.W
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
reverting to the home page
couldn't resist posting it,
it written by the famous hindi poet Harivansh Rai Bachchan
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
type crime
Monday, June 16, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
aarghhh
Smearing raindrops
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Unnecessary drama
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
edible, real
Monday, June 9, 2008
Where the spirit floats
Friday, June 6, 2008
The middle class
Thursday, June 5, 2008
The white of the night
Monday, June 2, 2008
names of things
Saturday, May 31, 2008
inverted clocks
Friday, May 30, 2008
The road home
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Love = A half eaten salami sandwich
after lunch,I read
for a while.
But I suddenly wanted
to look again
and I saw the half-eaten
sandwich,
bread,
lettuce and salami,
all carrying the shape
of her bite.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
What has been
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Starry Starry night by Don McLean
Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.
Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...
Saturday, May 10, 2008
If you wish is what you get
Thursday, May 8, 2008
a world of phonexis
I just thought of something....
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
together
Monday, April 28, 2008
Grieve
Thursday, April 24, 2008
I dream of jane kyun?
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Tell me
Tell me that what all that has transpired between
2 experiments
Friday, April 18, 2008
The most exciting shade of blue
the grey man and his colorful balloons sequel
Saturday, April 12, 2008
One should be careful with calculations.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
the actress in me
the bosses daughter
the timid one trying to prove independence with a vengeance
or the cheery, sob hopping from one shoulder to the another.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
One more dumb blonde
On a certain uneventful Friday,
because of a certain uneventful incident,
a person becomes so dear to you,
the same dumb blonde, you so emphatically dismissed all these years,
the same punk, you couldn't bare to look at,
just because, an uncontrollable ailment,
shows how very vulnerable and human that Greek really is.
There something about ailments and humanness,
something that unwittingly binds, vulnerability and innocence
unconsciously, sympathy raises a greater quotient of affection,
why is it that, when the person is affectively ailing,
is when maximum affection bestowed on them?
are healthy people not human?
do they not deserve to be concerned for?
what does one have to do to get a hug around here??
umm........ fall sick, develop a neurotic disorder, demand it as repayment or just plain beg for it.
oh no, wait a minute, i did all those things!.......
Friday, March 28, 2008
knowing well that u were left in the same spot earlier
still looking at the mirage at constant distance
Ever tried running afte a thin sheet of paper
in a windstorm?
Ever entrusted all your hopes and dreams
on the fleck of a feather that may not ever reach the ground?
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
The grey white man and his colourful balloons
sit and notice it really,
you realise how preposterously heartless the human race has become, and how unbelievable cruel things have taken on an attire of virility and god knows what justifications.
Yesterday, i was sitting in a cafe with a friend, next to a huge glass wall which overlooked the every busy and touristy mg road.
It seems like the whole of Pune comes out in the late evenings to relax with their friends, their loved ones.
The atmosphere is always of joy and happy purchases, and of course coffee.
this seemed like the perfect table to sit and relax, and space out looking at the thousands of people and cars, and vendors, the likes.
There is something about glass walls, that in an instant distances you from the inches of proximity, just like that.
So, me and my friend, celebrating the fact that i have come an hour early from the office, have snuggled in this cozy corner looking out waiting for the order.
And out of nowhere, this teddy bear of a man,
appears in front of us on the other side of the glass,
he is wearing a white ( which is so endearingly grey now )
separated by a sheet of transparency, we can barely hear him,
suddenly i feel like a spectator in a zoo,
and a showpiece in a shop, both at the same time.
This man, all white and grey,
the nehru topi,
the pathani, and a white beard,
the baby fat probably never left him, or maybe came back after youth.
Holding out a bunch of brightly coloured balloons,
not insisting, just smiling at us,
i burst out laughing at the suddenness of the situation
and also at the warm feeling he created in me, making me want to hug him,
like a grandfather, ( for reasons that shall be explained in another post, both my grandfathers
have never really invoked in me the feeling of the relationship, talked so much about in stories)
hes there just smiling, laughing in fact at my sudden laugh,
his head slightly tilted back in a ho ho ho laughter,
both of us, i like to believe shared a moment, which would linger.
And again out of nowhere,
he is kicked and pushed aside by this
young dutiful policemen, hollering at him for troubling us...
that moment was lost, the good humor was lost,
and everything else that cannot be described in words was also lost.
A new feeling took its place,
one of disturbance, of pity
of empathy,
and of overwhelming guilt.
He disappeared into the night,
with his colourful balloons,
and his whiteness turned grey,
all the color drained from his face,
into the oblivion, right where he came from,
he left his smile while leaving, with me,
i wish to return it if i get a chance.